Tuesday, July 16, 2013

This Is ME!

   First day of starting a blog. I don't know how to do this so i apologize if I do something wrong. I want to start a blog and write something new each day for the rest of the year and hopefully carry it out for a long time. Well, I'm going to start now... hope you guys don't mind(: 

   Today is July 16, 2013. I am 16 years old. I live in Boise, ID. I have blonde hair, blue eyes, and freckles. I'm about 5'5". I am LDS. Right now I am a Laurel in Young Women. Plus, I am currently the Young Women's president. I play the piano, I sing.  I am in Ars Nova (Varsity Women's choir) and I am in Aca-Pella ( Junior mixed choir). I love volleyball and I am thinking about trying out this year. I am going into my Junior year. Fun Stuff right? I'm almost done with high school! SCARY! I have two younger brothers. Cameron (14) and Dillon (13). My brothers are my best friends. I have no idea where I would be without my brother or family. I have ONE best friend who I  tell EVERYTHING too. Literally everything. I have no idea where I would be without her. She is my sister that I never had. Her name is Maddy Head. She is absolutely gorgeous, she is amazing, and a very strong young women. She gives me anything and everything I need and always has my back. I'm so very grateful for my family and Maddy. I count Maddy as family. 
   Alright, I hope you learned something new about me today! That was all fun and interesting right? I hope. Well, right now I don't know how I am doing. I am constantly having these thought in my head that I am not good enough. I wish I'm prettier, or skinnier. I'm in summer school right now and I'm taking P.E. boy let me tell you. I have been working my butt off. My friends and family all tell me that I'm perfect just the way I am or I don't need to change. Well, I'm glad that they think that. Really. It means a lot that I have people in my life that are willing to tell me that. BUT I want to be able to tell myself. I have learned in life that nobody's opinion counts in life but your own.  I don't even have a positive opinion about myself. I want to change that. I know it's not going to be easy. Heck, it might take me the rest of my life. Who knows. I want to be able to have self confidence in myself and not always feel insecure and have to hide from everything because I feel like I'm not good enough for anybody's time let alone my own time. 
     I'm not writing this blog to get attention or to ask people to baby me. I'm putting this down so that I can let out my feelings when nobody else is around. I feel as if I'm taking away people's time when I talk to them about my problems. So, I figured, "Why not start a blog?" I'm not wasting anybody's time. I'm using my own time! It won't be my fault if somebody wants to read this for themselves. Go ahead. You'll learn more and more about me. Anywho back on track... I'm just going to end this blog for today saying, I just want to be happy in life. I want to be able to look myself in the mirror and be happy and be proud for the way I look. So, I am hoping and praying that by the end of this year. On December 31st that I will write a blog explaining how happy I am now. Then thanking everybody who has helped me throughout this little time. That is my goal. To be better and to feel or at least start improving in feeling better by the end of this year. That is my goal! What's your goal?   

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